Mr Right

There you were
as I remembered
Strong, steady, confident
with a smile

Who could see
that you'd look at me
Straight, sincere from your heart
and not your eyes

I can't believe I would say
that I just want you to stay
Not moving an inch from where you are
in my life

I can't believe I'll admit
what you really are to me
A warmth inside my heart
can't be denied
Cause you are my right

Put up a front with you
That's something I cannot do
No matter how I might
or ever how I tried

Nobody understands
not even my so called friends
So I just wish upon a star
that we won't break apart..

KOKKITOs belated

Never at home, your life's a mess
Never at rest, you want to neglect
Always on the run
your life's so hectic
sometimes I wish you would just stop

Trying so hard to just impress
Striving to show you're one of the best
To the point that you start to
go the other way

So I know
You're running in the fast lane of the quarter life
And I get it
if you start wanting to die
Nothing goes your way
You stuck and stumble
when you try to stay steady state
I just hate you this way...

Sometimes you get so dysfunctional
When you are stressed
you tend to shut it
Don't get me wrong, I love you
but there's ought to be another way...

Nobody's judging you, my love
Believe me when I say
we all just want you to be
the person you are to be
Confident, happy
couldn't care less bout the rest
and contented...

this is not something that I like to publish regularly..

But this being the start of a senior year, makes me want to write a piece of my mind. Maybe it's just me, but I have always had this negative side that is almost impossible to kick-out. And to kokak please don't even start to think anything to say.

facts will be facts.. They are all scared of me and they definitely have a thing against me. Yes.. They are all digusted with the hideous, fat me. But its not all their fault alone. I contributed to this problem too. My ways of not smiling, constantly sarcastic and harsh did not make it easier for them. How can I blame them. I really can't though I want to.

I admit the fact that if this was to be looked at closely, it is my fault. What can I do?? I'm not like other people. I wasn't raised to have flirty body language, soft silken voice and graceful attitude.. But I am also eve; just like them.

I am everything they are but extremely different in so many ways. Maybe what they say is right. people will see on us what we saw on them..

So, I was tagged in Facebook... And I want to tag KOKAK and Putri here..

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: minerals on tap
2. Last phone call: PSJ
3. Last text message: kodek
4. Last song you listened to: wonderpets teamwork
5. Last time you cried: sometime last week

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: i date my frens gazillion times
7. Been cheated on: probably dozen times
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: not yet
9. Lost someone special: quite some time ago
10. Been depressed: duhh! I'm a student
11. Been drunk and threw up: drunk on life

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. green
13. purple
14. grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: lots
16. Fallen in of love: not to date
17. Laughed until you cried: none amuse me that much
18. Met someone who changed you: not yet
19. Found out who your true friends were: still in progress
20. Found out someone was talking about you: not this year
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haven't tried that
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all minus one
23. How many kids do you want?: 4 n downwards
24. Do you have any pets: only my sister's..
25. Do you want to change your name: pichosso???
26. What did you do for your last birthday: plotting revenge with a cake on my hand..kidding
27. What time did you wake up today: 0800
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: pet society....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: everything...i hate waiting
30. Last time you saw your Mother: sunday 0900
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nak jadi alim...cam bib
32. What are you listening to right now : d crancky fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i thought i have
35. Most visited webpage: questionablecontent.net
36. Whats your real name: d same one posted on my profile
37. Nicknames: i only reply to naim
38. Relationship Status: daughter,student,fren
39. Zodiac sign: pisces
40. Male or female?: if i were a dear, i would be a doe
41. Primary School?: Sekolah Kebangsaan Sentul 1
42. Secondary School?: SMK Batu Muda, SMK Desa Tun Hussein Onn
43. High school/college?: Kedah Matriculation College
44. Hair colour: black with a hint of hitam..soon to be..
45. Long or short: is this question refers to my hair?
46. Height: not qualified for nba
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: none i can think of
48: What do you like about yourself?: i am fat
49. Piercings: ears..homemade
50. Tattoos: nothing that last long
51. Righty or lefty: right oriented

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: when i was 5...jatuh gaung...true story
53. First piercing: time baby
54. First best friend: my sisters
55. First sport you joined: sukaneka time tabika...hehe
56. First vacation: famiily day in frasers hill..where i fell
58. First pair of trainers: pasar mlm

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: just finished a bag of chips
60. Drinking: about to
61. I'm about to: drink menerals on tap
62. Listening to: crancky kipas
63. Waiting on: bed time

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: guess so
65. Get Married?: if anyone wants me
66. Career?: business maybe

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: my peeps
68. Hugs or kisses: beary hugs
69. Shorter or taller: i like tall..cannot reach
70. Older or Younger: matured not senior
71. Romantic or spontaneous: definitely not heart attack spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: not flabby arms
73. Sensitive or loud: respect other's needs
74. Hook-up or relationship: steady state relation
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: can't decide..both are bad

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: akak faci yg islamic tu
77. Drank hard liquor: ALLAH forbid
78. Lost glasses/contacts: i have eagle eyes
79. Sex on first date: ALLAH forbid
80. Broken someone's heart: not the opposite attract kind of way
82. Been arrested: not by the authority
83. Turned someone down: none that i can think of
84. Cried when someone died: almost all the time
85. Fallen for a friend?: is it even permitted??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: not all the time
87. Miracles: only the ones made by ALLAH
88. Love at first sight: been there..done that
89. Heaven: absolutely
90. Santa Claus: ridiculous
91. Kiss on the first date: only when done by others
92. Angels: definitely yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: how can someone have only 1 fren?
95. Did you sing today?: sadly no
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: on principles basis
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : as far as i could stretch
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: day b4 raya
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: dying to..but no luck
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: no human can be 100%..there aren't even 100 questions here