Kemana HIJRAHku

Lama sungguh laman ini tak dikunjungi.. Terasa kekok pula hendak menaip kata-kata apatah lagi ini entri pertama menggunakan bahasa melayu sepenuhnya.. Lidah kelu untuk berbicara, jemari pula kaku menunggu cetusan idea.. Ok dah.. Cam tulis karangan BM lak..



Mmg dah lama sangat.. Bukan sebab xde cerita. Mungkin diri ini lebih selesa mengalami semuanya dan kekok bercerita.. Atau mungkin mmg xreti nak karang ayat.



Sedar x sedar hari ni dah pun mula tahun baru. Tahun baru ni mula dgn kebanggaan M'sia bila bola sepak dpt emas utk sukan SEA. Siyes mmg x suka sukan lagi2 bola..tp tadi tgk jela sebab smua pun siar bola. Trsuntik satu prasaan bangga bila M'sia menang..mmg sgt gumbira..smpai Hanim yg tengah baca majalah pun ikut sorak sama..



Taip je nama Hanim teringat kena tinggal kat umah sewa ni.. Besanya dok tinggal ngan Nana. Hanim ada pun malam ni sebab nak teman..klu x dia wajib cabut dulu..klaka sungguh. Pasal nk balik cuti pun nak dilema. Nak balik ke idak?? Pastu x pasal2 sedih.. Mula2 dok fikir org ni, org tu..sapa kna tinggal sorg2..kesianla.. Tup2 sndri kena tinggal.. Bukan salah sapa pun. Salah sndri sebab xleh nak buat keputusan.. Smua nk tunggu org lain..tengok dulu apa nak jadi.. Bila smua xikut apa yg dharap, mula lah nak sedih.. Bukan pasal hal ni je..smua benda pun camni gak.. Xtaula bila nk ubah..tah bila nak hijrah..



Esk stat la hari aru dalam tahun yang baru.. Bila tgk2 xde pn yg prasan hal ni.. Sibukkn bola punya hal.. Aku pn lebih kurang je.. Walaupn x kisah pasal bola, tp aku tetap x kisah pasal tahun baru ni..

Azam tahun ni.. nk kurangkn dengki dan tak puas hati ngan org lain.. insya allah..

Mr Right

There you were
as I remembered
Strong, steady, confident
with a smile

Who could see
that you'd look at me
Straight, sincere from your heart
and not your eyes

I can't believe I would say
that I just want you to stay
Not moving an inch from where you are
in my life

I can't believe I'll admit
what you really are to me
A warmth inside my heart
can't be denied
Cause you are my right

Put up a front with you
That's something I cannot do
No matter how I might
or ever how I tried

Nobody understands
not even my so called friends
So I just wish upon a star
that we won't break apart..

KOKKITOs belated

Never at home, your life's a mess
Never at rest, you want to neglect
Always on the run
your life's so hectic
sometimes I wish you would just stop

Trying so hard to just impress
Striving to show you're one of the best
To the point that you start to
go the other way

So I know
You're running in the fast lane of the quarter life
And I get it
if you start wanting to die
Nothing goes your way
You stuck and stumble
when you try to stay steady state
I just hate you this way...

Sometimes you get so dysfunctional
When you are stressed
you tend to shut it
Don't get me wrong, I love you
but there's ought to be another way...

Nobody's judging you, my love
Believe me when I say
we all just want you to be
the person you are to be
Confident, happy
couldn't care less bout the rest
and contented...

this is not something that I like to publish regularly..

But this being the start of a senior year, makes me want to write a piece of my mind. Maybe it's just me, but I have always had this negative side that is almost impossible to kick-out. And to kokak please don't even start to think anything to say.

facts will be facts.. They are all scared of me and they definitely have a thing against me. Yes.. They are all digusted with the hideous, fat me. But its not all their fault alone. I contributed to this problem too. My ways of not smiling, constantly sarcastic and harsh did not make it easier for them. How can I blame them. I really can't though I want to.

I admit the fact that if this was to be looked at closely, it is my fault. What can I do?? I'm not like other people. I wasn't raised to have flirty body language, soft silken voice and graceful attitude.. But I am also eve; just like them.

I am everything they are but extremely different in so many ways. Maybe what they say is right. people will see on us what we saw on them..

So, I was tagged in Facebook... And I want to tag KOKAK and Putri here..

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: minerals on tap
2. Last phone call: PSJ
3. Last text message: kodek
4. Last song you listened to: wonderpets teamwork
5. Last time you cried: sometime last week

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: i date my frens gazillion times
7. Been cheated on: probably dozen times
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: not yet
9. Lost someone special: quite some time ago
10. Been depressed: duhh! I'm a student
11. Been drunk and threw up: drunk on life

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. green
13. purple
14. grey

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: lots
16. Fallen in of love: not to date
17. Laughed until you cried: none amuse me that much
18. Met someone who changed you: not yet
19. Found out who your true friends were: still in progress
20. Found out someone was talking about you: not this year
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: haven't tried that
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: all minus one
23. How many kids do you want?: 4 n downwards
24. Do you have any pets: only my sister's..
25. Do you want to change your name: pichosso???
26. What did you do for your last birthday: plotting revenge with a cake on my hand..kidding
27. What time did you wake up today: 0800
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: pet society....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: everything...i hate waiting
30. Last time you saw your Mother: sunday 0900
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: nak jadi alim...cam bib
32. What are you listening to right now : d crancky fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i thought i have
35. Most visited webpage: questionablecontent.net
36. Whats your real name: d same one posted on my profile
37. Nicknames: i only reply to naim
38. Relationship Status: daughter,student,fren
39. Zodiac sign: pisces
40. Male or female?: if i were a dear, i would be a doe
41. Primary School?: Sekolah Kebangsaan Sentul 1
42. Secondary School?: SMK Batu Muda, SMK Desa Tun Hussein Onn
43. High school/college?: Kedah Matriculation College
44. Hair colour: black with a hint of hitam..soon to be..
45. Long or short: is this question refers to my hair?
46. Height: not qualified for nba
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: none i can think of
48: What do you like about yourself?: i am fat
49. Piercings: ears..homemade
50. Tattoos: nothing that last long
51. Righty or lefty: right oriented

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: when i was 5...jatuh gaung...true story
53. First piercing: time baby
54. First best friend: my sisters
55. First sport you joined: sukaneka time tabika...hehe
56. First vacation: famiily day in frasers hill..where i fell
58. First pair of trainers: pasar mlm

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: just finished a bag of chips
60. Drinking: about to
61. I'm about to: drink menerals on tap
62. Listening to: crancky kipas
63. Waiting on: bed time

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: guess so
65. Get Married?: if anyone wants me
66. Career?: business maybe

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: my peeps
68. Hugs or kisses: beary hugs
69. Shorter or taller: i like tall..cannot reach
70. Older or Younger: matured not senior
71. Romantic or spontaneous: definitely not heart attack spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: not flabby arms
73. Sensitive or loud: respect other's needs
74. Hook-up or relationship: steady state relation
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: can't decide..both are bad

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: akak faci yg islamic tu
77. Drank hard liquor: ALLAH forbid
78. Lost glasses/contacts: i have eagle eyes
79. Sex on first date: ALLAH forbid
80. Broken someone's heart: not the opposite attract kind of way
82. Been arrested: not by the authority
83. Turned someone down: none that i can think of
84. Cried when someone died: almost all the time
85. Fallen for a friend?: is it even permitted??

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: not all the time
87. Miracles: only the ones made by ALLAH
88. Love at first sight: been there..done that
89. Heaven: absolutely
90. Santa Claus: ridiculous
91. Kiss on the first date: only when done by others
92. Angels: definitely yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: how can someone have only 1 fren?
95. Did you sing today?: sadly no
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: on principles basis
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : as far as i could stretch
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: day b4 raya
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: dying to..but no luck
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: no human can be 100%..there aren't even 100 questions here

The Boneless Tongue

I ran through some blogs the other day and found this along the way... A great art of reminder to the mind and heart. Enjoy...

The boneless tongue so small and weak,
Can crush and kill declared the Greek.

The tongue destroys a greater horde
the Turk asserts, than does the sword.

The Persian proverb wisely saith
A lengthy tongue - an early death.

Or sometimes takes this form instead,
Don't let your tongue cut off your head.

The tongue can speak a word whose speed
The Arab says outstrips the steed.

While Chinese sages thus impart
The tongue's great storehouse is the heart.

From Hebrew wit the maxim's sprung,
Tho' foot may slip ne'er let the tongue.

The sacred writer crowns the whole,
Who keeps his tongue doth keep his soul.

check this couple out: http://joshandmandee.blogspot.com/

I do not like Office politics

This is getting sick and obnoxious day after day. Who does not talk behind everybody anymore? I admit, this is done by me too. As bad a person I am, I just cannot take these people anymore.

They are constantly talking behind everybody’s back. The result is me trashing BTM 24/7 to all the people I encounter. Want to know anything about BTM? How does working in MITI feel like? Trash…trash…trash… occasional gossiping is good, but connives bitching? This is not healthy at all.

The main reason people are nice to each other and in good terms are so that they could trash one another behind their backs. How wrong can this be? How more wrong can it get?

I found out that N and L are actually good friends. They know each other’s family. The occasional I-visit-you-visit-me-back kind of thing. Then, when they got to the office, they only talked bad about the other. Reveal each other’s weaknesses. Trash the friend behind her back. It seems almost like they naturally hate each other.


Then, there’s the lets-bitch-our-bosses thing. These people have worked so long that they have developed the sense of 'bosses are useless idiots'. Nobody literally have respect for anybody. They don’t respect the bosses, colleagues; hell if they respect themselves. This has taken a serious toll on me. I am constantly talking the bitch word and curse. Urggh!!

Sometimes it is hard to distinguish relationships...how to set apart the different people in our lives. Even just by being a spectator, I feel like a great deal of wrong was done. Is this the real deal?

A Note to Ponder

What do I think about the Israeli’s bomb strike? Obnoxious, pretentious, exaggerated, crazy, desperate, pure cruelty. This act is not only malicious, it’s very inhumane. Are these people even human? Do they have minds? Heart perhaps? How brutal can beasts become?

I just don’t understand. What is the purpose for all this attack? To stop terrorism? To behold justice? Or just pure insanity?

These zionists who call themselves jews, admited of being semitics. Claimed an arabic land to be their rightful one; their holy land. The home to countless Arab people-Muslims. They threatened these people, the Palestinians to leave the homes they occupied for centuries. And when these Arabs refused to go their way, the so called jews strike malicious attacks on them.

For the Palestinians are barbarics. They are anti-semitics. They have no respect towards other people's sentiments. They have to be destroyed.

Why all this hatred? Where does it come from? Is it the mere fact that the Palestinians are anti-semitic? How can that be? Semitics are simply Arabian. Being anti-semitics would show that these people hate themselves. Is that even possible? The very nature of Arab people is to have strong principles and bonds. To hate your own race; your own brothers would mean that they have no principles.

This also apply to the so called jews who have no more relative blood ties to being semitics rather than a mere ideology. A question to these people: To kill thousands of innocent Palestinians; won't you be anti-semitic too?

And what about all the people in the world that say Arabs and Muslims all over the world are barbarians? The ones that call Al-Quran a piece of crap. The people who wanted to drop bombs in Mecca. Won't all of you be anti-semitic? You should also be called anti-jews. That would only be fair.


But then again, who am I to ponder upon all this. I am but a humble servant of the One an only Mighty GOD.

Say all you want. Do what you can. Hate all you would.

May ALLAH forgive you...